Today sucked.  I was so stoked for church this morning.  I was going to go at 11 to my church and guess what.....Somehow i seem to sleep til 1130.  I woke up mad at my mom but it was my own fault.  I haven't slept that late in so many years it is crazy.  Latest i have slept recently has been like 930 at the latest.  So i am really down today cuz i couldn't get to church on account i am stupid and over sleep.  It really sucks.  I have never been to a good friday service.  I really wanted to see what one was like.  I don't know if any other lutheran churches are the same.  I was thinking about going to one tonight. but i odn't think it will save me from the fact i missed again.  Now i have to wait a year to go.  A whole freakin year.....365 days.....I am so pissed at myself i can't even explain.  Myself sucks....Y do i have to listen to myself.....You myslef i hate me....Screw me.......I hope me dies............Freakin me............

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